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[about me] evon lim. 16. 7thmarch'89. bwss. yv0nne_lim@hotmail.com

[what i like] energy^ shuwei. frens (tiko) desiree,jannie,liming,minnie. pink. play piano. listening to songs.

[what i dislike most] backstabbers. ppl who anyhow accuse me.

[my wish] able to be best frens 4eva with my best frens currently. having good results 4 o level. see energy again and again. not to have quarrel with anyhow. learn to look on the bright side of life.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

eveyting sux. just like b4.

i miss shuwei. weijian. leon

*_evonshuwei_'
11:04 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

haiz.. went to sch 2dae.. yeah.. mr michael nv cum.. got free period.. hahaz.. haiz.. but i was reali v v tired le.. wrote 2 letters.. one 4 weijian.. one 4 leon.. hahaz.. i miss dem alot!!~ sch sux.. v bored.. haiz.. i wan to go to de result show!!~ ARGH!!~ WEIJIAN n LEON!!~ u 2 must b in!!~ love both of u.. =) haiz.. but i dun dare to ask my parents.. last thur got hm at 3am le.. haiz.. how?? how?? ok.. i wil stil try.. thru o level chi oral le... abit nervous le.. hahaz.. hope i m able to get through le.. THUR!! faster cum.. i miss weijian n leon.. =)

*_evonshuwei_'
4:17 PM

Friday, July 01, 2005

YO!~ hahaz.. so long nv update le.. went to sch todae.. wah.. oni slept 4 3 hrs.. haiz.. v v tried sia.. but ytd i m v v v v happI!!~ hahaz.. leon rox!!~ he is soo nice!!~ love him sooo much.. =) todae alot like weijian de ppl all go got.. den alot of ppl crowd round him.. haiz.. but i got let him sign tings 4 dat. YEAH!~ hahaz.. he rmb my name..=) give him mentos.. den he v v cute le.. ok.. haiz.. william v bad.. wait 4 everyone go in le den cum.. scare us.. we tot he went in le.. haiz..HAGEN!~ bluff ppl.. sae he mayb in side le.. heng weijian sae he haven cum yet =)

after dat.. waited.. den darryl came.. yeah.. he v shuai n nice.. hug him.. he super tiko la.. omg.. hahaz... like him alot.. WAHAHAH!~ after dat.. simin wana make a phone cal.. acc her go down.. after her call, i dun feel like gg up.. so ask simin to stay der awhile more.. den after awhile... leon and junyang + duno who cum le.. omg.. junyang n leon came together lor.. haiz.. den hav to hlp liming take both of dem de photo.. v mafan le.. hahaz.. den simin actulai wana take junyang de.. den paiseh rite? den in de took both of dem de.. hahaz after dat, tok to leon 4 ard 1 and 1/2 hrs.. he super gd sia.. after dat dun hav mood type le.. i v tired le.. hahaz.. wana go n slp 1st.. =)

*_evonshuwei_'
3:30 PM

Friday, June 24, 2005

yoyo!!~

hahaz.. v tired sia.. ytd went mdc wif simin.. den saw jannet and deon. den slowly all cumin le.. =) hahaz.. i love u guys.. ytd i relai v happi le.. william de 1st time cum le.. hahaz.. den weqiang, hagen, weichoong, den de last to cum is weijian.. haiz.. already 10pm le.. haha.. william quite poor ting le.. everyone is signin tings le.. hahaz.. den william keep askin dem to go in le.. but all of dem nv listen.. kip signin. hahaz..

took photo wif william, sebastian, weichoong.. ARGH!!~ i nv take wif weiqiang le.. coz william la.. kep askin him to faster.. hahaz.. but nvm.. oh yah.. his stomach stil haven ok le.. he oni eat bread le.. haiz.. AHH!~ he got ask me wat time reach mdc le.. actulai i wana bluff sae 7pm de.. den caifen!!~! idiot.. tel him 2pm... ARGh!! i dun wan let him noe i cum so early de..

after dat.. we went into de studio..

sofia n caifen is sittinb beside me.. haiz.. y must darryl out?? i like him le.. he v handsome le.. all of us cried.. v sad scene le.. haiz.. cant imagine nxt wk de.. OMG! haiz.

waited 4 dem to cum out.. dey came out at ard 12.30am le.. all v v sad le.. =( haiz.. weiqiang c sofia dey all cryin.. he oso wana cry le.. haiz.. so poor ting.. william oso cryin le.. =( weijian look super sad.. his face v scary.. haiz.. when we leavin tat time.. wei choong sae.. " 1st time c u all leave 1st" hahaz.. he v funni le.. =X reach hm at ard 1 plus. mum nv scold.. v heng. watch tv until 4am den slp..

todae.. put alarm 8.30am. plan dat if i m able to woke up, i wil join simin dey all, but haiz.. nv heard. slept until 12plus den wake up le

went online. tok to liling,cheryl evon dey all..=)

oh yah i send a msg to weijian le.. an wei him.. i oso got tel him he v scary le.. tis is wat he reply..

" sorry evon if i scare u all... but i just dun like the fact that 2 of best pals had to go le... sugie and darryl are the first people i know in this competition way before the top 24 are announced... and both of them are really some of the nicest people around...

i just dunno wat to say yesterday... even until now... when i watch the results show my mum recorded just now... the feeling still haven sunk in...

anyways... i guess i'll be really busy soon le so i'm afraid that i can't reply all of ur personal messages le...

someone told me in friendster that there's this yahoo groups for me

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/hohweijian/

i will definitely drop by on and off to say hi to u all de! write my feelings about the competition and many many other stuff... meanwhile u must take good good care aiight! i'll be strong de... do wat i can now to stay for myself and all my pals and u all... ;)

bestest of regards!
Wei Jian"

omg.. i v v happi le.. =) hahaz.. okok.. liling just told me hagen sae tml dey gg to mdc at 8am.. stil tinkin whether shld go mah le.. hahaz.. i miss weijian.. OMG!!~ i miss shuwei more.. =X

*_evonshuwei_'
3:56 PM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

ok. i got nth to blog. all my fault. losin at my frens at one time. hav u got de feelins b4?

i stil tink is abt me. read 4 2 to 3 times. stil tink is me. ok. i shld tink properly whether i shld chase energy mah le.. mayb dey r even hopin dat i m nt chasin? coz i wil spoil mood? i duno. lets c how bah. mayb deon can dai ti me and 3 of u can be as gd as how we used to be.. hahaz. =X. or mayb u all prefer now wif deon? hahaz.

ok.. i decided. i wil let it go n c how. if tings stil continue to b like dat. den let it be. haiz.. abit tired of it le.. mayb we r oni fated to b oni frens 4 1 yr? hahaz.. anw. hope u wll find ur true and real best fren. =)

*_evonshuwei_'
6:45 PM

Monday, June 20, 2005

wahahaha.. i just recieve a msg frm her.. hahaz.. soooo happi.. u must b tinkin dat i m mad rite? hahaz.. but u guys dun understand how i feel la.. hahaz.. quite happi le even though it is a plain n simple msg. =)

actulai der is nth to b happy abt la.. everytin went back.. sad n depressed agn.. haiz.. no comments. *cryin*

tings are just not like b4. y cant she just care more abt me n lettin me noe dat i m existin? she is a person wif no comments. lideat i wil feel more sad. how i hope i can go shoppin wif her agn b4 sch reopens. sad. confused. left out by everyone.

wat can i do 2 save tis??? WAT??? haiz.. nvm.. shall try wat my fren tel me.. read her blog. she seems to b soo happy. k i m happi 4 her to. so wat i sae. i knew it. when i m at de v v bottom. she might b der happily playin.. =( shld i give up? or continue to save tis precious friendship? i reali duno. mayb she tink tat is no nid coz she didnt feel there is smth wrong between us. mayb bcoz she has still hav happy moments now. wateva i sae is just mayb. haiz. i dun even noe how she feel. i have been tryin all my best to save de friendship. sufferin in de dark, but she? stay happily as if der is nth wrong between us.. DER is!~ haiz.. ok.

to her : hope u wil reali cherish tis friendship. n if u hav comments to wat i wrote. u can tel me or xplain. wat i wrote may nt b correct.

dun tink i m able to slp agn. haiz.. 3 dae.

love shuwei hearts weijian.

*_evonshuwei_'
8:37 PM

cried de whole night. eyes v pain sia. waited 4 her reply till 12pm. started to change clothes and prepare to go orchard ALONE! see.. is ALONE! hav anyone of u went orchard alone b4? hahaz.. tis is nt de 1st time le.. =( hahahaz..

went to c de paint tings. de tings der quite x.. but oso v nice.. walk ard.. went far east, hereen, cine..

haiz.. i reali v sad.. n i duno wat to do.. how i hope i have an angel wif me to tel me wat shld i do. told her wat i feel. but so wat? sae le oso no used. haiz.. mayb got used bah. it wil show after daes.

ok.. heard frm my frend, i could do stars or seagulls 4 dat person. mayb it will hlp bah.. okok. i decided to give it a try.. dat is my last n final hope. haiz.. i knew dat she wun contact me unless i contact her.. n i duno y is it always lideat.. now. she might b haven fun n playin happily. while, i seems to b at de v v bottom and she dun even care or bother to ask how i m? how i hope i could get her concern and care.

fri der is nth on. i have de money . but i stil dun feel like gg.. nt bcoz of fikk.. but bcoz of my feelin. she can go ahead. coz dat one v long deon already ask le. if i sae wana go other place, she oso wun accompany me le.. sumtimes i reali tink. got best fren like no best fren liedat. best fren can oni hav one and oni. i got good frens. but de one dat concern my is stil de best fren. haiz.. ok..

feel like gg out tis wk wif her. but i doubt she will hav de time and she wil oso nt ask me to go out. so.. haiz.. suan le.. shall rot at hm.. =(

energy lets us noe each other betta. energy may b de one who broke de friendship.

can sumone tel me if i shld chase energy tis time round in july? i duno.. haiz... tons and tons of problem is in my head. n i could hardly breathe.

it hurts when dying, but it hurts more when you are living.

*_evonshuwei_'
5:23 PM

Sunday, June 19, 2005

yo! haiz.. 2dae doesnt seems to b a pleasant dae to me..

went to piano lesson as usual.. haiz.. she prefer to go der den to cum here. wat can i sae? i duno. my msn nick "sil2hmf?: shld i learn 2 hide my feelings? i duno. evertime wen i sae out smth. i tink both partners are not happy. so. shld i learn 2 hide my feelings? at least she will b happier. w/o noein how i feel. smth i reali hope dat she will understand my feelins w/o me saein out. but how? i tried sooo mani times le.. but she just duno. haiz.

nt gg to her hs will simply make me feel sad. tml wil b a dae at hm or at the library. i don't have to go to my grandma hs le.. but i will nt go her hs.. sumtimes reali hope dat i m nt in tiko-grp. becoz of dat grp. my frendship is in a chaos.mayb i m nt fit to b in dat grp or wat bah.. gg out wif her n dem will oni make me feel xtra n sad. y cant we b like last time? gg out 2gether n havin soooo much fun? i m a person who doesn't like to go out in grps.. ppl who noe me well shld noe.. so i always hav chalet or bbq not more den 10 person. but does she noe? bocz of her. i lied to her. i feel guilty. but nvm. i tink is worth it. but now? haiz.. i duno. just tink i m nth to her. mayb i reali shld nt take my friendship seriously =x

sorry des. sorry.

i agree to des nick [ when i'm alone, i hurt no one and no one can hurt me]

*_evonshuwei_'
3:29 PM